Bitterness...

OK, so it has almost been two weeks since I have recieved a letter from Vinson. I am beyond annoyed because two weeks ago he said he sent it. What the fook is going on? Yes, I need to be used to this by now; however, this letter is important. This letter outlines the possibilites of where he may be station after BMT.

Of course I am not mad or annoyed at Vinson. It is not his fault but not hearing from him after a while makes me feel bitter. I am beginning to feel bitter towards other couples because I can't have what they have. I can't run up and hug Vinson or kiss him or tell him "I love you". The only connection I have with him is reading his letters, over and over. The only comfort I can seek to make me feel he is close.. is to sleep in his over-sized t-shirts at night.

This sucks... that is all I have to say about that.